Today, for the first time in months, I walked into the bathroom and recognized myself.
The last three months have been wonderful, happy, empowering, etc, but also extremely tiring, which showed up on my face. I know every mom knows this. So when I would drag myself to the bathroom in the morning, I would look at my reflection and think- is this what I’m going to look like for the rest of my life? First it was the pregnancy chubby face, and now a haggard face?
Then today, I looked in the mirror and was surprised. Sure there were still faint dark circles under my eyes, spit up on my shirt, messy hair, and extra pounds, but beneath all of that I could see myself. And to top it off, I’m finally able to count the pounds I have left to lose on my hands, rather than needing a few people to lend me their fingers. It feels marvelous.
What is it that brought me this amazing and much missed feeling? Sawyer slept last night.
Not for eight hours or anything, no where near it, actually. But the little boy who usually makes lots of noise, and rolls, and wakes up every hour (or more often), slept quietly for five hours, then two, then three, then two again. When he woke up after five, I was worried he’d woken up but I was so tired that I didn’t hear him, but I really think he just slept the whole time. This morning, I got up and got ready before he even started throwing that head around. It felt so good to take my time getting ready.
While I was enjoying some time to myself, I had to time to catch up on some blogs and came across this blog. Reading Christi and Jeremy’s sweet stories about their beautiful children made me even more grateful for mine. If you need a pick me upper, something new to read, or just want to check it out, go read their blog A Road Less Traveled. It is touching. Feeling grateful this morning.